UCRAZY FOR JAPAN??!!

I still like Japan,I just dont love it anymore.
First time I came here, I only saw the 'appearance'. That was an all brand new experience to me... endless buildings.. cutting-edge technology.. city which never sleeps (lots of shops open 24h), all those colorful Japanese mangas, games played by teenagers so as seniors... Tokyo was just synonym of pure crazness! I enjoyed myself every night going to clubs, going back to my apart at 8 to have a shower and then heading straight to my agency. I felt so dizzy, dizzy by so much colors, fun, noise... my 5 senses have never been so 'awake'.

Now its quite different.
Im not going out that much (first and main reason is there are no party girls in my agency and we're not as close as I used to be with other models from my frist time here).
I see the city and people differently.
First,I already knew how Tokyo will be like when I'll be back. First time was so surprising than now it just seems more 'common'.. so Im focussing more on people than the city itself.
For my first trip, I felt so amazed by people's kindness. 'Japanese all have a big smile upon their face, all thank, all apologize, all bending'. They all look sooo nice and respectful.
But now, I see them more like "robots". They become 'inhumans' by showing off their 'best human behaviour'. its just TOO MUCH!
My feeling towards the Japanese society have considerably changed.
Relationships aren't that 'sane', and prooves are many:

Japan has one of the world's highest suicide rate.
Workers 'are crazy about work'. My jap friend, for example works from '8 to 8', 6 days a week, which doesnt leave enough time for social relationships.
At the same time, rape games are rising (the daily headline on CNN!). The supply just caters for the demand... a sexual demand!! making up for the 'sexual lack' back home.
A japanese friend recently asked me: "What do U waana do latter?"
I told him I'd love to work on psychology, anthropology, intercultural management.
When he first heard "psychology', he burst out laughing.
Indeed, Psychologist are uncommon, even unexistent in Japan. Going to a see a specialist dealing with mental pbs (or simply if you need to speak) is seen as a 'weakness'. Everybody is human, every single person can feel depressed sooner or later. they just find difficulties to accept it.
If the husband loose his job, he would certainly prefer hiding the truth til finding a new one. Too much pride? what are they afraid about?